Thursday, May 31, 2007

a small, true thing.

Sometimes Claire's feet and hands get going faster than her body can keep up. She gets focused on her destination and takes a tumble. This afternoon, she had a small face-collision while crawling toward the front door of our house. She sat up and whimpered, but didn't full-on cry. As she was pulling herself up to a seated position, I stood to comfort her. She didn't see me move, and when she looked to where I had been sitting, I was gone. Then, the tears started. The faceplant was a small thing compared to a missing mama. She held on to me fiercely, and cried fat tears. For one tiny person, I am comfort and safety and home. It's a weighty thing.

A year into motherhood and I'm still learning this. Today I read a great post by a newish mom that just fit what's been on my mind lately. Here's part of it: "Little adventures that used to be easy, like going to Glide for example, seem so complicated now. I'm not complaining when I share this. Please don't get me wrong. I very much WANT to be here. I'm simply noticing that on so many levels, my life is new. I am still transitioning and trying to figure out what I can keep from that old life, what is worth fighting for and what I can let go of and embrace about what is happening now.

I've been in a funny kind of isolation....Motherhood is new and I still feel like a brand new pony with it. All legs and wobbles and no grace."

Amen to that. This graceless pony thanks you for your kind comments and that you keep coming back here. I'm still trying to decide on a new blog title and appreciate your suggestions. Feel free to keep 'em coming.


thethinker said...

What a cute picture!

Alida said...

This post is awesome. Thank you! After 4 years, I'm still letting go and discovering all things new.

momaof4 said...

She is just to cute.
Hold on to her!!

Anonymous said...

Just when I think I've seen the cutest picture ever, comes a new one!! Hey, whaddu think about claire&company??

Luv u.

Stephanie said...

Cute picture! I've been wracking my brain for ideas on names...

Here's what I came up with in the middle of the night (why am I thinking about your blog in the middle of the night? who knows)

The Color of Claire
A Life of Clarity
Clear & Claire
The Curt Life

I'll stop now. I get out of control on matters like these!

Anonymous said...

I, too, have been thinking about your blog/website name from afar.
What about something like:
(Since Claire will always be your baby, with verbal space for more, and will include your hubby.)

I still enjoy reading your blog. Thanks for sharing your heart and life.

Cynthia said...

You're like the Yoda of blogging which leads to my next comment. I have a blog now...I sent you an e-mail. It's not near as cool as your and I'm still figuring things out. I know you'll help me if I need it:)

P.S. Claire continues to amaze me with her cuteness.

Anonymous said...

I thought of a new one!

The Beans are driving the bus.

This encompasses having more children and vw's of course.

I'm still thinking....I can't wait to see what you choose.

Their Giant said...

Great suggestions! I'm thinking of combining a few of the ideas -which means more prizes. I'll try and decide this week and make sure that what I'm leaning toward is available :) If anyone has anything they'd like to add, feel free.

THANKS to all!

Lion Heart said...

I'm usually pretty good at coming up with creative little names for blogs etc...but i'm drawing a blank of course. Little claire is so adorable! That first year of mother hood just sweeps you off your feet. I'm glad your loving it.

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