Monday, April 07, 2008

boy oh boy.

Confession: I was hoping for another girl. I felt horrible for feeling this way. I mean, there are people who would take ANY baby and here I am feeling picky because mine has this pesky lil penis. So I wasn't going to write about it. I was going to suck it up and pretend to be excited about the impending dong. But the thing is, I wasn't. And it seems unnatural to put on a happy face in your own blog, you know?

Slowly, though, my heart started to warm toward the little guy. We settled on a name. I discovered the fun of miniature man sweaters. I held a few little boys. I had great conversations with great moms (of boys and of girls) who were maybe not initially thrilled with the gender of their babies. Apparently, I am not the first person to ever feel like this, and for that I am thankful. It's clear that these feelings don't last and I didn't speak with anyone who was cross-dressing a five year old. I realized that I wasn't alone. That last thing helped more than all of the miniature sweaters I could buy.

I also looked at my girl. This little wonder of a person who I wasn't planning on and I realized that the very best surprise of my life was something that had initially terrified me.
And I'd say that turned out pretty good.

6 comments:

Anonymous said...

Oh trust me - you can make dressing a boy lots of fun. You should check out the stuff of Brayden's I am selling (of course all to big for your little one) but gives you an idea of how crazy you can go. My 'for sale' site is www.picturetrail.com/goddesskms and if you know anyone else who might be interested in it please pass it on. One more thing.....I am one of those people who would have been happy with ANY baby - so you are blessed. And what is the NAME???

Kristin

Patsy Clairmont said...

Any change is intimidating and brings the age old questions "why me" and "can I do this."

Being the mom of two sons and two grandsons may I say you are about to lose your heart to that little one with the extra parts. ;-) Just as you are enamored with your daughter you will be smitten with your son. Boys have a way of adoring their moms that will melt any reluctance in you.

Lean in to the idea of it and when the reality is there you will be too.

Blessings, Patsy (yep) ;-)

Anonymous said...

Maybe it's just fear of the unknown...or maybe people have said the words "pee-pee tee-pees" too many times. Heck, I'm not pregnant, and those words still weird me out a little. :)

Great post, though.
cmhd

mcmom said...

I am so with you on the boy thing. I was very upset when I found out I was having a boy. I had to ask myself, self, why are you upset. My answer was because I wasn't going to be able to have cute dresses and fun bows. What in the world. I can honestly say boys are easier. They are rough and crazy, but they are just not as emotional. God knew just what I needed one emotional girl and two crazy boys.

Alida said...

Besides boys really love their momma's. (You really have to trust me on this one.)He'll want to marry you someday and it'll make your heart melt:)

dz said...

I will admit it Kari, I felt the same. I thought I could never love a little thing with a penis like I love my little girl, but man oh man was I wrong. The mother/son bond is irreplaceable. I thank God that my little 'suprise' is who he is, because I cannot imagine not having him!!