Friday, August 06, 2010

where else can i go?

I wish I could adequately describe the terror of looking in the backseat and seeing your toddler convulsing and turning blue. I just can't. It is scary. Thankfully, the Dada was with me. We are seasoned in seizures. We spend the days that follow unable to breathe, unable to sleep, talking in code. We obsess about doses of Tylenol. We worry that he's not eating. We watch for signs.

For the first few nights, she is full of questions. She brings cool cloths and water and offers help. She looks at me earnestly as I rock him and says, "You can call me if you need me."

Today, I laid him down for a nap and a few minutes later, returned to find this:

If a blog post could be a prayer,then this is mine: Please,God no more sickness in this house. Please be here in the midst of all of this. It feels like too much but I believe what You've said and I hold onto You the way they were holding onto each other.


T Mama said...

Psalm 121
A song of ascents.
1 I lift up my eyes to the hills—
where does my help come from?
2 My help comes from the LORD,
the Maker of heaven and earth.
3 He will not let your foot slip—
he who watches over you will not slumber;
4 indeed, he who watches over Israel
will neither slumber nor sleep.
5 The LORD watches over you—
the LORD is your shade at your right hand;
6 the sun will not harm you by day,
nor the moon by night.
7 The LORD will keep you from all harm—
he will watch over your life;
8 the LORD will watch over your coming and going
both now and forevermore.

Anonymous said...

so scary. I'm sorry you have experienced that. Hope Mr Baby is doing well. <3 -Ang

Des said...

I love that Claire is so attentive to him right now, it is super sweet

Laurie said...


Alida said...

Kari! Oh my goodness I'm so keeping you guys in my prayers. Give those precious little ones kisses from us and a big hug for you my friend. Please call me if you need anything.

Jennipher said...

thank you for being open, honest, and sharing your shows me how to pray for you and your sweet family. the words that have been coming often to mind for you all are "and underneath are the everlasting arms." i pray this comforts the mommy. we love you.

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