Wednesday, December 28, 2011

do everything better???

Am I the only one that sometimes forgets to feed her baby?

I read this great quote a while back. Here it is:
“I’m a list keeper. I always have a to-do list…At one point I kept adding to the list, more and more items, more and more sweeping in their scope, until I added this line: DO EVERYTHING BETTER. It was, at the time, a pretty appropriate way to capture how I felt about my life and myself fairly often…why my life sometimes felt like I was running on a hamster wheel and why I searched the faces of calmer, more grounded women for a secret they all knew that I didn’t. This is how I got to that fragmented, brittle, lonely place: DO EVERYTHING BETTER...The grandest seduction of all is the myth that DOING EVERYTHING BETTER gets us where we want to be. It gets us somewhere, certainly, but not anywhere worth being.”
― Shauna Niequist, Bittersweet

I return to this little neglected space, shaking off the feeling that I should be better at blogging consistently, that I should do more crafts (that was for you, bff), that I should exercise before the sun rises, that I should have a PLAN, a 401K and equity (that was for you, Scoobs).

The truth is, this December I played with my kids. I baked brownies and the best flourless chocolate cake imaginable, I read a ton of Junie B. Jones with Claire, I went to the park every Thursday afternoon with a dear friend, I wrapped gifts and did an advent calendar and exercised with moderate regularity and made giant huge batches of playdoh that smells like peppermint. It has been a good month. DO EVERYTHING BETTER is a lie. We have to choose. I choose to return to this space because I like to write, even if no one is reading.


cmhd said...

You do everything just fine! I want to be you when I grow up. :) And I still read here - I love your updates. :)

Anonymous said...

Oh, we're reading alright! Love you from the bottom of my heart.....and you do everything just fine.


Dana Gay said...

Love your words and always fund them honest and uplifting. And I have aso forgotten to feed the baby

Micah Kavedzic said...

Just decided this morning that I was going to skip new year's resoluting this year.... I feel like this decision will make you proud of me:)

Glory Laine said...

I am reading. I love how you mother. I would like you to consider adopting me. I'd like to bake with you and I really want to play with peppermint play doh.